~~~Addiction~~~

here, lepaking at Starbucks... like usual.. siting in front of my laptop and on9... instead surfing the net I also read a book but not today. No interesting books that I would like to read, well, obviously because no books around here... hahahhaha...

I'm starting to lose my focus in reading and writing lately-addiction with facebook. I don't know why I'm addicted to. Obviously, I've got so many friends there and we have lots of interesting gossips that we could share together. And the best thing is when we go out and meet together at least we have topics to share and laugh out loud about it. Sometimes, it makes me breath and enjoy myself; far from stress and depression of life.

On the other hand, I could find and meet new people and old friends that we'd lost in touch from this searching pals website. Talking about meeting new people, last week I've been introduce by my friend to her friend. wowwww... he's hot man... hahahhaha... (don't get wrong with this.. I mean about his character). He's cool and very sporting... and for starting, I proud myself because I break the pattern. I lost my nervous anxiety. I can talk.. talk..and talk without thinking about myself. I feel good about myself. When I sit and thought about my anxiety, I learn from it- to be myself and enjoy the conversation. Yeah... I should practice it in another time.. eheee~~~~

I think that's all for now... I've got so many things to share... but I don't have much time to do it. heheheh.. better off now... I love my self............

LUNA~~~

ReLieF

few days back, my close friend and I hang out at Oregano Cafe, Waterfront. We love to spend time there... because of the cool atmosphere... it relaxing our mind. Plus, the brightness from the candle lights, foreigners & locals -mixing together, listening to sentimental music, the waiters' greeting and cherish the room.. the sea view... ahhh.... very very entertaining.. perfect!!

it's already 3 days.. and I still sick... fever, cough, flu, head ache... hmmm... lack of my body energy... I looked at the mirror... my face looked dull... how I'm gonna meet my friends with this look, do my work, think using my brain..etc. All that I can't leave without is.. CIGAR. That thing.... is my "drug". It was a cure for my stress and internal pain. It gives me an energy from inside. I know it's not good for my body... but what should I do... it likes a loyal company for me...

sniffles..

love
~LunA~

looking for the truth?

wowwww... it took so long for me to write... lately I was so busy with my life, lots of problems that I have faced.. but still I have no clue... when I came back from OBS, which the place that I think suits for me to escape from life matters and almost discovered about myself.. thanks to sstc...

love life... FUCK!!! I admired with someone that I've been in love for a year.. I kept it and sealed it with no one else knows it but my closest friend. But now I think I wasted my energy, time, efforts and my "space of memory" in my brain thinking about a loser like him... I regret it... I felt really down.. and my self-esteem almost collapse..

I started to think that I have to focus with my own things.. and leave all the shit behind-distracting my focus for all this time. I should stop dreaming and not too focus on my negative view about my self.. yeahh it gave me a shit until I could not stand by my own feet- which I learned from OBS few weeks back..

the moral of the story, Be positive thinker, love life- my friends love me a lot; waiting for a guy that gave a shit it's not cool at all...